Have you ever had those moments of ‘I just really don’t belong here’? I had one yesterday…
I was at my neighbor’s house looking at her Yard/Porch Sale, she wears my sizes. We have been friends for *thinks hard* …about 9 years now. She’s a year and 1/2 younger than me, butthat really doesn’t change a whole lot at my age. 
We’ve always known we aren’t exactly alike, she is more of a ‘worldly’ girl than I am; I would rather wear a garbage bag than wear some of the outfits she wears. I would rather befriend Frankenstein’s monster than have some of the friends she has. I would rather put my head in the toillette and listen to the water in it than have to listen to some of the music she listens to. I would rather eat soap than say some of the things that she says.
And yet all of the things she does is considered perfectly normal from a teenager, and the world expects teenagers to be like her.
Aside from all of our differences that we have, we still are friends. (Just not close)
Usually we don’t always disagree with things. However on several occassions I realize just HOW different we are… yesterday was one of them.
We were sitting there talking about some of the things we are doing this summer when a guy walked by with his dog.
We both looked over at him, smiled and nodded. (That’s how we say hello here. -Sometimes it’s a raised hand, other times it’s actually a verbal hello, but the most common is a head nodd.) He smiled and nodded back and walked on.
When he passed out of ear range we both said ‘Awwwwww, he’s so cute!’.
We both laughed that we said the same thing, “I know,” I said “I just love German Shephards, they are so adorable.”
She looked at me stunned. “NOT THE DOG! … I meant the guy.” she said in an irratated voice. (Like I was the idiot here.)
………
I’ve never, EVER thought that way about a guy before, and yet I’m looked at like the weirdo in the situation. I think we were both stunned at eachother’s responce, although we’ve known eachother long enough we should be used to it by now.
*sighs* I, yet again, realize that ‘I just don’t belong here’.
Michelle Said:
on July 10, 2007 at 8:31 pm
For the record, Danica, you’ve just described my entire childhood. I NEVER felt like I belonged in my family. God used that search for belonging and identity to draw me to Himself. I was the first in my family. Since that time, he has drawn four more of my family to join His family. It sounds like Father was using this experience to make you Homesick for Himself. BTW, were you able to get your camera fixed?
Fondly,
Mrs. Michelle
p.s. I left you a little something on my blog. Please stop by to pick it up.
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